Start it AGAIN

Oh yup, it's blog. Hav been a long time since my last one. When browsing my twitter, i spotted my bloggiee website. A lot of cherished, troubled, happy memories floating in my mind, that i will definitely not thinking back if i din scroll down. My heart is a bit heavy right now.... There is still some posts that i dun really proof read, something that i dun wan to look back. It's smthg related to library. Anyway, it's my past. I TOSS U.

I stopped writing it, u know, Form 5, the SPM, the result that can decide how expensive your tertiary studies. The better the result, the lesser u pay for ur college tuition fee. Well.... i din make it as well as what i targeted. 5A+, 2A, 2A- and my chinese i got B+. I cant declare myself as straight A passer in my entire major exams. Damn not feeling good.

Hanging around cool gang, speaking english like laosai, cracking the jokes that really a joke (not the lame one), getting to a higher lvl of self-esteem.....Scenes tat i imagined how my college life would likely be. How sophisticated. How wonderful. Most of them runs the opposite. So glad that i hav kwang hua-rians CATer in my group. That's also how my chinese speaking life continues. And thg i  must admit, I am a slow adjuster when im alone in a whole new environment. I need stress to push me to speak, to speak english!!! 

Feel happy to have gathering with my buddies. Always feel the coziest, the freest to hang out. We still link :D

Im so admired friends who speaking english in class. They dun speak chinese even a portion of their classmates familiar with the language. Oh, it's Taylor. 

If the web of people is a big puzzle, they would be the part that fixed on it firmly. 

Report Day [2012]

Oh mannn... English spoiled everything =( 

Only 60 marks for it and also means a C if in SPM **sighhh**

No way for me to give reasons, more hard-works should be paid off.

My philosophy goes 'The Price You Pay, The Equal Amount You Get'.

Anyway, it gives me a blissful moment that makes my smile cant stop on my face. TEEHEEee

I saw HIM. =3

4S1 [2012] is in Pangkor Island

An awesome trip. A better rapport with classmates. A fab experience. Encounter a lot of new things that I ever try before in my life.

The first day, we gathered at the school. Whoops! I was the latest to reach. I have brought along my brand new D5100. TEEHEEE.

We walked in the beach, climbed the rocks, played 躲避球, splashed the water.......

                    

My foot was scratched for the first time. 

I dont noe the rocks were so sharp and slippery after both my feet injured. 

At night, SEAFOOD BBQ awaited us! The service was so good, they even roasted the food for us. It ranged from crab, prawn, thorn less fish, chicken and the normal one like fish ball as well as hot dog. Okay, i admitted tat there wasn't vary choices but all was come out with the perfect time and temperature. And they were enough for us to fill up our amply stomachs^^

About 9.30pm, we went to the beach again. With our luck, we have the chance to see the 蓝眼泪!!!! It is a kinda algae that only appear in Pangkor Island and only at the dark night. When the wave splashes the sand and returns, the moment the seawater returns, u will see a few of tiny purple blue dots on the sand surface if u are lucky enough. It juz sparkle for once every time.
Most of us play pokers until the late midnight. At 0234 only i hit the sacks. Dyinng.....

The next day morning, we were woke up at 6am. Karxiong cheated us! At first he said will give us sufficient sleep but he took a big iron plate to BANG to wake us up. LOL wat the...-_-
Running man after breakfast. F-R-U-S-T-R-A-T-E-D .

With heavy heart but a clear head, we left Pangkor Island in the afternoon.

We have our dinner in Kampar and reached school about 9.30pm.

Finally come to the end of form 4

It's a challenge for me being the president of yyc and rakan pembaca, really hope tat i can do well. At times, dunno why i will feel fear of the posts i get. It's sound very admired by others but in reality-----> not a piece of cake. I know, i know, im not tat well in leader-ring the whole group or holding a meeting and not sociable enough to hav a humorous interaction. "GIVE UP" and "SO-SO PERFORMANCE" in the posts are attacking my mind. NO! I cant be like tat.
Turing back the clock. Do they not i wan and desire when my first step into kwang hua? Yes, they do. These are WHAT I WAN and now i hav seized the chances, i shall DO THE BEST!

Pei Yong, u can do it. Believe urself  =D
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Hav i make my right choice for continue being a librarian and giving up the UBK? Im for sure the latter. My enthusiasm has stop burning, there is only left the real friendship. I like the FRIDARIANS: dicksen, shaoying, hueyyeong, kaiser and the emo boyboy ---> zhi xuan. And also others: chujing, yingjing, ruixin.....mayb left out some...hehe. Feel depressed to involve the activities, it will only make me more depressed and depressed. Is it the last experience cause my change? Probably.
Standing at the crossroad, looking at the paths, which one gonna i choose? **torturing**
I WAN TO LEAVE TIS PLACE. It makes me inconfident and i hate it. I wan to pop out more time for my study. How odd if there is a form5 suddenly change her uniform into the normal one and not a librarian. Haizz.... i should more persendirian at the beginning.
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As Ketua Papan Notis in marathon, words for myself :
Be what you are in nature. And don't shape urself into others.
It will make u sad at the end. You know tat u like to RUN. So, continue burning ur passion.

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Tidy up my precise mind and cope up with my studies during the holidays =D

人生 4 苦

• 看不透：看不透人际中得纠结、争斗后的隐伤，看不透喧嚣中得平淡、繁华后的宁静。
• 舍不得：舍不得曾经的精彩、不逮的岁月，舍不得居高时的虚荣、得意处的掌声。
• 输不起：输不起一段情感之失，输不起一截人生之败。
• 放不下：放不下已经走远的人与事，放不下早已尘封的是与非。

Grade 7 exam and Me

It's not because i failed to play well. It just that i have prepared, although it's a late preparation. It's the best technique and emotional preparation I've done. I was disappointed because i can't get used to the different environment, I can't get used to the different piano which was brand new and soft key. I SHOULD"T be liked tat. I SHOULDN'T panicked after playing wrong notes. I SHOULD'T! I SHOULDN'T!

It is Grade 7 now, not the intermediate grade. Those silly dilemmas shouldn't happen on a 7 Grader. I should be enough experience and shouldn't affect by the change of circumstance.

Maybe....they are not the reasons. Maybe i'm giving excuses.

Anyway, i believe there is still miracle & lady luck for me to get MERIT. Who know?

Not a HONEYMOON YEAR!!!

FORM 3----JUNIOR YEAR ; FORM 4-----SENIOR YEAR.

What a big different!

4S1 is a safe, enclosed room, nobody knows what we're doing when the doors are closed. I used to enjoy my lunch, chit-chat like storm, giggling with bunch of girls, tapping mobile keys and lot of things which are banned to do. Sound crazy. But it's juz so safe to do those in 4S1.

"AHHHH~ he/she is COMING!!!'' ''SHhhhh" news will always spreaded at the first seconds and all of us return back to our seats swiftly. Some more, pretending we are GOOD STUDENTS. LOL Our eyes are glancing coverty around each others and give a devil smile =X when teacher entering our class. How exciting!

Hustle and bustle of life is nearer and nearer to me. I always ask myself: How could i let myself be in such a mess situation? I really dont used to it! What should i do? I want to do my own stuff but apparently not enough time. A stack of hmwk is constantly enchoeing in my mind

---BRAIN GONNA BURST---

I intend to end up my library life, but it juz failed. Then a soso character is popped out in my mind. Juz be like tat in library. I, however, no idea why i will be chosen in major position like ajk of pencalonan, ahli disiplin , camp leader...... Deep in my core, Im pondering: The god might challeging me ;P

After encounting many, god is giving a chance to practise and proof that I have the ability to be what i want to be in my future sector. So, I assume that im right =)

Try my best. Give myself a chance and give others a ; shock. HAHAHA

Form 4? Form 4 really not a HONEYMOON YEAR !!!!

封锁的心灵